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“Pastor, I can’t forgive myself”

June 30, 2016 by Leslie Vernick

When our Christian counselee or church member says something like, “I just can’t forgive myself,” how do we respond? Perhaps it’s someone who has committed adultery or had an abortion or done something contrary to Scripture and, despite asking for and receiving God’s forgiveness, she refuses to forgive herself.

We listen to her internal dialogue. She beats herself up saying things like, “I should have known better.” Or, “Why did I do such a stupid thing?” or “I can’t believe I did that.” Or, “What’s wrong with me?” And for some people, this internal dialogue is running day and night, tormenting them with every mistake, sin, and failure.

As Christian counselors and pastors we earnestly try to insert the gospel into this person’s thinking, challenging her with the truth. We may say something like, “If the God of the universe was willing to come to earth, become human, and sacrifice Himself to forgive our sins, who are we not to forgive—either others, or our own selves?”

Yet that theological truth can be difficult, if not impossible, for our counselee to put into practice when she’s in the middle of ruminating over her stupid mistakes, missed opportunities, or sin. God’s grace, although mentally acknowledged, is not her internal reality. It’s theological truth but not transformational truth.

When someone isn’t able move beyond her failures, mistakes, and sins, she can get stuck in a spiral of debilitating regret, depression, and even self-hatred.

It’s important that we understand the way out of this internal bondage. It’s not self-forgiveness, but rather self-acceptance. Although she’d be hard-pressed to acknowledge it, she wants to be like God—perfect and in control of all things.

She believes she should know how to do it right, to say it right, to know ahead of time what the right answer should be or what right solution will best solve a problem. If she could always live that way, then she’d feel better about herself. But when she fails (and as a sinner she inevitably will), she feels profound disappointment and shame. She can’t believe how stupid, sinful, foolish, incompetent, scared, irresponsible, selfish, (whatever) she is. In beating herself up, she’s reinforcing her internal lie that she should have been better than that.

Before someone can experientially accept God’s grace, she must emotionally (not merely intellectually) accept who she is. There is only one God, and she is not He. She is a creature: one who is called both saint and sinner, beautiful and broken. Humility is the only path that will give her the internal freedom she craves, because once she is humble—Jesus called it “poor in spirit”—she’ll be in a position to emotionally accept who she is: a fallible, imperfect, sinful creature who doesn’t know it all. Then she will no longer be so shocked, shamed, or disappointed when she sees her darker, sinful, weaker side.

It’s not her sins and failures that cause her greatest emotional pain. Rather, it is her unrealistic expectations of herself and her lack of acceptance when she messes up. In a backward way, her pride has been wounded. She is disappointed that she isn’t better than she is. But the truth is, she’s not. In embracing that truth, she is also set free to embrace and experience the beauty of grace.

Now the grip of self-hatred for being imperfect no longer has the same power over her. Now that same emotional energy can be used to humbly ask for forgiveness from others where necessary. Instead of hating herself for her sins and failures, now she can learn from them so she doesn’t continually repeat them. Now she can fully experience what she so desperately craves, God’s love and forgiveness for her sinful, imperfect self.

One of my mentors from days past, François Fénelon, wisely wrote, “Go forward always with confidence, without letting yourself be touched by the grief of a sensitive pride, which cannot bear to see itself imperfect.”

Go forward, friend, and help your counselees emotionally accept their imperfections. It is in that place of humility coupled with Christ’s unconditional forgiveness that they will find the freedom they long for.

leslie-vernick
Leslie Vernick

Leslie Vernick is a popular speaker, author, and licensed clinical social worker and relationship coach. In 2013, she received the American Association of Christian Counselors Caregiver of the Year Award. Leslie received her master’s degree in clinical social work from the University of Illinois and has received postgraduate training in biblical counseling as well as cognitive therapy. She is a featured expert in the DivorceCare Christ-centered divorce support group program. She has authored several books, including How to Live Right When Your Life Goes Wrong and The Emotionally Destructive Relationship. Leslie has been a featured guest on Focus on the Family radio, FamilyLife Today with Dennis Rainey, and Moody’s Midday Connection, and she writes a regular column for WHOAwomen magazine.

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